My mind has been racing in all directions these past few months. Life is such the roller coaster. To be honest, I haven’t been completely content in over 4 years. Now, I know you can’t have what you want always but in over 4 years, I can’t have something simple?
i’m not going into further details.
I’ve been needing a creative spark.
I need a trip or an outing of some intellectual value and worth. Not that I’m having a mental block because once I start something, the ideas always pour in, I need that motivational push to keep going. I am not losing faith in my ability, its just that I do so much mainly on my own with my art & my business. I don’t really have an official team or even a collective for that matter. I work with people from time to time but its no real definites that we’ll always continue creating together. I hardly get any feedback from people I actually know on anything I make. I don’t even know what people think of my shit, so I guess I have to do better cause right now I feel like everything I do is shit.
I don’t need a pat on the back, I just have nothing else to go on at the moment…
b arely even talk to my friends about my work anymore because they’ve shown little to no interest.
over time this just makes me more & more cynical
#moretocome #shootPreview #upnext