Been fasting for nearly 3 years now and it has been a food fast, but going into this 3rd year, I’m somewhat switching gears and I’m also fasting on my online consumption with social media. I’ve learned that it has been my distraction and oddly enough I feel relief when I turn my phone off. DND isn’t enough sometimes neither is airplane mode because I’m still tempted to check on my phone if it’s on, but when it’s not, all bets are off and I feel hidden for some reason.
I don’t know who really reads these and sometimes when I want to talk but at times when I can’t talk to the people I want to, I’ll resort to these posts on my website.
I’m public and yet private. I’m trying to be more transparent mostly but when it’s something close to home, I’m more private. One thing I will say, cater to what caters to you. I’m working on not letting my stress manipulate me into becoming an a$$h*le.
People don’t care enough and I think society has become very numb to emotions. I just don’t know what to say anymore, I’m becoming very disconnected socially. Really burnt out on forcing a smile.
Quality time doesn’t exist anymore when all you see is the person you thought you were sharing time with, locked into their phone. There with you physically but not mentally, their mind is wherever the screen in their hand shows them, whether you’re just with friends male or female or on a date.
The moment they become hypnotized by their handheld devices, they do not see what their vice is, and it’s right in their hands.
Now I’m not perfect because I’ll do the same, however, I regulate it to my business or urgencies (emergency or if someone feels it urgent to contact me, I’ll hear them out but if it’s not that important I’ll let them know I’m busy).
The moment you decide to turn your phone off and not interact with anyone, they outcast you as if you’re anti-social. As if they ever really gave you a real listen once you are socially interactive. The moment you remove yourself, people will try to guilt you but I feel invisible to most people as if I don’t exist or I’m some sort of living myth.